This message goes out to all the people I know as my family aka my friends...
What you see on my social media is some idea's, my radio show on nsbradio and business related to living in Portugal. We use the internet a lot differently out here than how most people use it.Without our internet connections aka facebook, it is very hard to get an understanding of the community and ability to communicate with one another. I am unsure as to actually who see's any of my posts or any of the threads found on this blog. I hope they're getting to the people that need to see it.
Over the last 2-3 years I have had around 800 people add me on fb, this is due (I believe) to my DJ related works with NSBradio and the blog that I started 10 years ago (www.thankphat.com). It has taken a lot of work in such a small scene to get a little bit noticed. I have no idea how many people download my podcast, I have been up and down with the uploads, sometimes the headspace I have been in creates a negative understanding of what it is I am trying to achieve. Breakbeats, Farming, DJing, Sound Engineering, Riding, creating events, cultivating relationships with people, these are the things I thrive on. I hope to push my own boundaries of understanding and sharing my journey with anyone that is interested.
This year, again, I have stopped smoking & toking. This is the 6th and I truly believe at this moment of time, the final time that I will stop. Tobacco is the hardest thing to stop smoking, once it has a grip on you, it takes full hold and then slowly helps you to destroy yourself. If it's through the money that you spend buying the tobacco/cigarettes/weed, the destruction of your lungs, the staining of your teeth and lingering smell around your clothes and hair. My dad left this world due to Emphysema (lung disease/copd) He had smoked for as long as I could remember. As a little boy I would always steal his tobacco, lighter and papers and put them in a pot. Of course, I always put them in the same place. I wish I had put them down the toilet and flushed them away. As a teenager I hated the thought of smoking and drugs.
At some point in my late teens, around the age of 16/17 I accepted that it was an experience to be given a try, then for half of my life I have been stuck under its spell. Nicotine is not worth the money we pay for it. Did you know, something like 60mg of nicotine can kill you! Bare in mind 1 cigarette contains, when smoked 1mg of nicotine. Yes I understand, you're not going to light 60 cigarettes in 1 go, but the possibility of being able to die is immense. A toddler could eat a butt of a cigarette and potentially die from it!
Cannabis can be a great tool to create deeper understandings of self, the reality in which we live in and also a connection to people. Even the government tells us "it's a gateway drug", however, they're suggesting that it is a gateway into leading you onto other drugs! A quote from myself in 2014 "Cannabis is a great procrastination tool" if you have plenty of time to do nothing and be happy doing nothing, yet all the time thinking that you are achieving some sort of greatness due to the amazing thought processes you are having, think again. I know, as well as any other stoner, that you get great idea's when you're high. The main problem is, you have no idea what you were thinking as the thoughts come as quickly as they go.
When I spent 1 year having a smoke once every 2-3 months, for 1 day only, the amount of understanding I had was invaluable and because I was not hooked into the daily habit of the tobacco/nicotine, I was able to use it to get a greater understanding of what I wanted to do as being not stoned 24/7 I had become bored, when boredom happens, instead of being complacent in my own headspace, I became more creative and a lot more things were actioned. That few days over a year, gave me a quick glimpse into my own headspace, then because of the not stoned headspace, I was able to grasp the understandings that I was getting, write them down and then action them the following day.
This year I turned 35, it is time for me now, finally, to stop doing something that is hindering my personal growth of knowing who I am and where I fit in in this world.
Weed/cannabis, is my favourite thing to do in the world. I love being stoned. I am the group stoner. It is my label. But I am by my own virtue un-labelable...
Since giving up this last time, I feel a level of relief, a level of anger and also disappointment in myself. The tools we are given, we openly abuse, daily.
If we come from Shaman, healers & people of a greater understanding, we have truly messed up along the way.
Our culture of wants has created a negative vibe, throughout the entire world. We want, want, want... We always want. But the wants and desires that we can obtain through understanding ourselves is bigger than any sort of commercialised product that we feel we want, including cannabis.
If we want, we will always be wanting. The question we don't ask is What do we truly need in our lives?
The answer, I feel will surprise you, or not. This is my opinion, but I believe (at this moment in time) that we need connection with others, an understanding of our place in a community or network, to know that we are loved, to feel that we have a common ground with our friends and family.
Since being here, living in Portugal, my goals have changed and changed and changed. Constantly evolving. We have to move with the times and evolve ourselves, constantly.
We have the tools to create a greater understanding, yet ,we just abuse them and think it's fun!
When you wake up the next day with a weedover, pick up last nights joint, spark it up and think to yourself "ahhh that's better, the weedover is gone" nope, that's just the nicotine.
I consumed 7-8grams a day, for around 6 weeks by the time I stopped in 2013. The reason was because I was hydrating between 2-4 ltrs of distilled water per day. At the end of the night, I did not feel stoned, at all. I was hydrated, as was my body.
I became aware that, the feeling of "being stoned/high" is actually dehydration, not "being stoned/high" as we feel it is. You know, that end of the night stoned, when you can't smoke anymore... Yeah, that is dehydration.
I finally found some actual real information regarding distilled water. Download the PDF.
When I lived in Istanbul for several weeks, I went to a hookah/nargile bar. I pulled a whitey (stoner's will know what I am on about). I was shocked, I can handle all the smoke you can think, yet this hookah pipe, with it's malasis tobacco made me full on white out. I was in the bathroom, spinning out, nearly throwing up, I drank a few bottles of water and sort of felt better... It took me several years to realise that it was de-hydration of the lungs. The body is pulling all of the water into the lungs to keep them hydrated, so then when we have not been hydrated at all we crash. Something with being sick must create a reset that helps the body to overcome the continued dehydration.
When you speak to the people that are the stoner's they are the philosophers, the out of the box thinkers, the people that have great ideas. We all can use some of the tools to create a greater understanding. I feel that when it was made illegal, it was done for a reason. To keep us in our bubbles so that we don’t use our personal power to help our own personal growth and the growth of others.
We are the rebels in this world, so the fact that it is illegal makes use want to do it more, subconsciously, we are like "yeah, fuck the system, I'm going to get high every day, all day and stick it to the man" but in reality, the man is laughing at us, we aren't going to do anything other than sit in our homes with our stoner friends laughing and talking about anything that pops into our brains, endlessly doing nothing. Even if we believe we are doing something, we are doing it at a 1/4 of the rate that we could be hand we not been stoned 24/7.
Having stopped again, I am now pushing myself to stand up, be heard and want to help.
I hope this is not all a bit random, I started this blog specifically for life and travels, I suppose this is about life. A lesson of consumerism, that has engulfed me, again and again.
This blog, for me, is an outlet of thoughts on my life, my experiences and how I hope I can help, even just 1 person to be aware of the world around them, even if that one person is myself!
Peace 1 <3
WMD
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